Worries

This past week, many worries have entered my mind.  I am trying to just give it all to God, but am struggling.  Please pray that I can continue to give up control and have peace in whatever comes.

Last Monday, I think I mentioned, I started having contractions.  As the week progressed, I noticed that Kenton dropped lower and the contractions continued if I was on my feet for too long.  When my OB had checked my cervix about a month ago, she mentioned to me that Kenton was sitting very low and she could feel his pressure.  Now that he has "dropped" and I am contracting, I am afraid that things will start to progress.  I am only 31 weeks along ... he needs to stay in and cook longer.

I spent the weekend sitting on the couch, for the most part.  I really tried to stay off my feet and hopefully things would calm down.  When at church yesterday, merely standing for 15 minutes, I could begin to feel my stomach tighten.  We are blessed with a fantastic sitter who took the boys today so I could try to rest and stay off my feet.  Within having the boys home for a about 20 minutes tonight, trying to get them settled, and dinner made, I had already started to tighten and contract.  Aaron took over when he got home and I sat and drank some water.  I then gathered the boys and took them to neighborhood group, while Aaron went back to work to announce the basketball game.  Everything went good at group and the boys were cooperative, for the most part.  We got home, brushed teeth, and read stories.  During story time, I contracted once or twice, but nothing too extreme.

I am becoming really concerned about not being able to take care of the boys.  What do we if I'm put on bed rest?  I finally have a good routine down and think I have behaviors under control for the most part.  I have cherished this time with the boys and will be devastated if I can't spend this quality time with them before Kenton arrives.  I have given control of my classroom away (which is a blessing in disguise), but am without a doubt not ready to relinquish the control of my house.  I finally have my dream job and do not want to give that up.

So, once again, I could really use some prayers for strength, courage, and the ability to just let go and give it to God.